Just for today: dance!
“And I’m on my knees, looking for the answer.
Are we human, or are we dancers?”
- Human, The Killers
As the question continues in my head, I wonder, am I human or dancer? Do I have to be either or or? Am I not both?
In each of us exists a being. And I also believe, in each of us exists a dancer. With that said, what differentates a human being and a dancer? In my book, this is how I define them.
Human.
Vulnerable beings trapped in a worldly world, bound my emotions, desires and expectations. Thus, we always say that “We’re only human” – because we’re leaving spaces for mistakes and imperfections.
Dancers.
Inspiring beings, so connected to the music and rhythm of life that they not bound by emotions, desires nor expectations. They feel and express feelings with all of their being, do things with full energy and commitment, do not worry about what the audience feel about their performance — because all they care is to create, express and their own feelings when they dance.
In some ways, this is why people are always attracted to and mesmerized by dancers. And when you begin to observe many dancers, you realize that those you love most are not the ones who have the best technique, but those who are so into the dancing themselves. You can see their passion in their eyes and movement – even if it’s just a flick of a finger. It’s like energy radiating so bright that even though you sit 50 rows behind, you can still feel their emotion. At times, you also realize that you’ve held your breath from watching them. They are that hypnotizing.
So, as I grow with this life, I watch myself. I sometimes catch myself being a human and other times being a dancer. I have danced through this life may it be in rain, thunderstorm, darkness and even on sun shine, beaches and heaven. And at times, I have let myself just to be human – to be drowned in emotions, desires and expectations.
When I’m dancing through this life, that’s when I feel most alive – the feeling of being connected to every bits of life. Joy and enthusiasm fill my being. Energy is flowing. Though the body is tired, the soul is rejuvenated. It’s the feeling of being in love for no reason at all – just for being alive itself. Everything I do seem effortless. I don’t have the need to control, judge or change anything. I feel free. The soul is filled with gratitude. I am lost for words. And the only thing I can do is smile. I am the luckiest girl alive indeed.
When I let myself be human, that’s when I feel vulnerable. The feeling of having no control over anything. I feel lost and without direction. That’s when I feel is the hardest to trust and have faith in things. I doubt. I think. I contemplate. I am without confidence. I question myself and this life. I find it hard to move. I find myself without energy and focus. I find myself just living in routines, trapped by responsibilities and expectations for myself and other people.
I’m not saying that one thing is better than the other, because I know we cannot appreciate one without realizing the other. So I’ve embraced both the human part and the dancer part of me. I’m giving myself time to be human for some time and be a dancer at other times.
So, are we human or are we dancer? We are both my friends. Though we are born human, learn to be a dancer in this life. And one day this life and we shall be the dance itself.
Like Osho said, “Life should be a dance; it can be a dance, it is meant to be a dance. That’s my message: love life, and with such intensity, with such fire, that you can reach to the optimum of your being.”
So, my friends. Let’s be dancers with such fire. Even though, at the end, I learn that what makes us great such dancers are because we are human.